*Shtuff*

Positively thinking positive….maybe?

I try, really I do, to think positive.  I try NOT to worry about things.  Do people realize when they tell you “Just don’t worry about it” that it’s not that easy?  Or is it that easy for others, to just switch off?  To decide, right..thats it, I’m not going to worry any longer.  IF you are able to do this…whoever you are…please teach me!  I worry all to often, about things that I cannot do anything about.  And yes, I do understand that THAT single sentence is the key to it all.  I cannot do anything about it.  Worrying changes nothing, other than adding grey hairs and wrinkles to my already freckled brow.

I guess I could try to *switch it off* were it just one thing I was worrying about.  But there are several things.  And once I go down that slippery slope of constant worrying, minor things start to worry me.  I am now so susceptible to worrying that I will worry about puppies on an advert!  I worry about my friends, constantly!  I worry about my health.  I worry about my family back home.  I worry about whether or not I’m going to FINISH this project I started as a gift (undoubtedly no - its too fucking big!).  I worry that I do not have enough socks.  I worry about how/when I will get back home.  I worry about my dog.  I worry about money.  I worry.  I worry about people I probably shouldn’t worry about, who may or may not worry about me.

All this worry keeps me awake at night.  I am feeling quite old.  I just want to be happy again.  I was, for a little bit.  For a while.  Not now.

Now, what I need is to stop worrying, start thinking positive.  HOW do I do this?  How?  Someone please tell me, eh?

Freckles :)